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\chapauth{Funk In Shoe}
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\chapter{I am {\bf not} Luke Bavarius}
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Interviewee: LARRY BAVARIUS - 05/05/09
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So what do you want to know?
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{\em Question.}
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Okay, see, this is something we're going to have to address
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before it starts bugging me: You need to relax.
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I see you're tensing up there, a little already, why is this?
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When we spoke on the phone earlier - when you called me up and
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asked for this interview and I told you it would be no problem and
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to come right over whenever you saw fit --- earlier you came
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off so easy going, on the phone. I made coffee, did I not?
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Is this just a matter of you being the kind of person who really
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knows her way around a phone but tends to come off sort of skittish
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in person? No? Could you put that down Bic pen already? You know
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the clicking, and all. I get skittish, too. Honestly it's
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alright.
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You {\em do} seem horribly tense. I am not, let me assure you, Mr.\ Ehl
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Bee. There is no need to go all star struck on me. I am as much of
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a nobody as you are, probably more of a nobody.
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Put the pen down, honey --- in lieu of that, just stop with the
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clicking, please. I'm sorry. Do carry on.
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{\em Question}.
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Well the thing is, the way you're phrasing that is you want
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me to tell you a certain mapped set of details about myself;
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details you're likely more acutely familiar with than I am
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myself.
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I don't know that I am related to Luke, as such. We
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haven't had much to do with each other since he published
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that{\ldots} Oh. Don't make that face.
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Okay, okay. Fine. So I am. Related. He's what you'd
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call my identical half brother. I know right? It's a weird
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way to put it and I apologize; I'm not trying to come off as
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overly dramatic here or trying to yank you around or make myself
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appear interesting or anything like that, really, it's just a
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sort of neat way of recapping our shared genealogy.
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And so but yes, I am a couple of years older than Luke and yes, we
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do share a good amount of absolutely top notch DNA. I've
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never been able to figure out exactly how much, you know,
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percentagewise et cetera, it's sort of a stupendously tricky
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prospect.
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{\em Question.}
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Because we got, obviously, the same mom and but so, as fate would
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have it, different dads. Tricky, because while my own dear sweet
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padre is an entity completely separated from Luke's ditto,
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they are, nonetheless, identical twins. This, their twin-inicity,
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if you will, is what has made all my attempts at coming to terms
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with the whole DNA snafu so far pretty frustrating. By now
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I've pretty much just given up. This, having the same mother
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and two different fathers who happen to be {\em appear} completely
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identical, is probably also why you're still fidgeting with
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that {\em God damned Bic}, even when I asked you politely and
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repeatedly to put it down, because it's freaking me
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out.
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I am not-I-repeat-not Luke Bavarius; and I am going to take the
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fact that you're still not quite sure whether to believe me
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or not on that, as a compliment that I am looking better than my
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usual best today.
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{\em Question.}
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Well because look at me. Check out thith. See thith? Ow. This is
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what the not-so-PC-crowd calls a hare lip. It's been fixed
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up, but it's pretty obvious with the scar and all, especially
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on the inside of the lip. Did you ever see a jacket photo of our
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boy Luke with a scar like this? This male pattern baldness thing?
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Luke dodged that bullet too. Where I'm 5.0 he's a good
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6.1. It's a mystery, really. You should{\ldots}
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Question.
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{\ldots}I'm not finished, you should see our respective
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family photos. For some reason he just turned out like a late and
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slightly improved version of yours truly. Same parents, just
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slightly better. It's bizarre. By the looks of it it's
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the same parents in the same photo studio, doing the same awkward
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pose with our respective and identical dads in the background, arms
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wrapped around mom, wearing all red. Bizarre because so the kid in
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the foreground is basically either me or, like, a really, really
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pretty and tall and attractive {\em enhancement}of me. It's
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just weird. I am not Luke. Convinced? Want me to whip out the
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photos? No?
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{\em Question}
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Well I'm two years older. Dad and Not-Dad moved here together
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and started a used car dealership on the eastside. You are aware of
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all this, I am sure. Any profiler worth her salt, writing for such
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a major magazine, will be aware of this. So but they moved here,
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yes, opened up their dealership and started making good money right
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off the bat. It was a couple of years after the bubble burst and
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Dad and his brother were lucky-slash-clever enough to start their
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business at a time when people were just starting to make money
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again, but were still hesitant about, you know, spending it.
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Everybody and their mom bought used cars back in those days.
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And so Dad meets our mom some forty-odd years ago and they fall in
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love pretty quick and Dad moves out of whatever east side apartment
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he's sharing with his brother at the time, and in with
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mom.
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{\em Question}.
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From what I've been able to ascertain, I came around some two
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years later. Give or take. You'll have to --- stop
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clicking --- you'll have to bear with me on the details.
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At this point, the dealership is running like greased clockwork and
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both Dad and Not-Dad are pulling in some serious moolah and Dad,
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Not-Dad and mom start getting invited to you know, get-togethers,
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shindigs, box socials, that sort of jazz around town with the
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movers and shakers of whatever post-recession high society was in
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function back in those days.
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{\em Question}.
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Well it started out as a sort of joke, you know.
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``Don't you drink too much, sweetie, or you'll get us mixed
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up''. Shits and giggles and lots of fun at parties with my Dad and
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his brother showing up in identical suits and my mom pretending to
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accidentally kiss the wrong clone et cetera.
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Shits and giggles right up until, and you've seen this
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coming, right up until the three of them actually go and get so
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drunk that my Dad passes out in a bathroom at some fundraiser,
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slumped over a toilet for hours so that to this day he's got
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horrible problems with his back, and Mom goes and sticks her tongue
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down the throat of Not-Dad by mistake and by the time he gets to
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object they're both too drunk to even care and mom decides
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right there that for whatever reason, Not-Dad is a much better
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kisser than poor, passed out Dad ever was.
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{\em Question.}
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I don't remember much, except for him drinking a whole lot
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and never wearing anything but his underwear around the house,
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really. And the yelling-slash-stomping.
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I remember asking him, once, like we're talking age three or
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four here, where Mom had gone and he yelled at me. My dad is sort
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of a dick. I told him he needed to stop yelling at me. He
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didn't listen. I told him kids need to be respected and
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listened to. No dice.
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He would have to be, a dick, you know, to stick me with the short
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end of the DNA stick like he's done. Thith fucking thplith
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lip! Ow!
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And so but Mom moves in with Not-Dad and lo and fucking behold THEY
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spawn a kid too.
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{\em Question}.
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Yes. Luke. I see you have fathomed the basic concept of
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{\em listening}, I am highly impressed. May I continue? Thank
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you.
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So naturally, with my Mom gone off to shack up with his Brother,
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there's no fucking way in hell Dad's dealership is going to
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stay afloat, these two guys can't stand the sight of each
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other.
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{\em Question}.
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Just {\em imagine} that! It's like some bizarro-universe
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incarnation of self-loathing. Imagine waking up, hung over, and
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stumbling into the bathroom, looking into the mirror and seeing the
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face of the guy your wife is currently fucking, who is not you.
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Then, suddenly, you are sobbing. One cannot even be-fucking-GIN to
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fathom{\ldots}
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So yeah, anyway, there was that.
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{\em Question}.
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Well so they split it up. Put down a fuck-all huge chain fence
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right down the middle of the store and the lot. Split the whole
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place in two halves that were pretty much identical except for the
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sign out front. Dad got the BAVA half, Not-Dad got RIUS.
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And, foreseeably, they started harassing each other pretty much
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right off the bat. He'd bring me with him to work every now
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and then. I'd hang around in the lot and play in the oldest
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most derelict cars, the ones he couldn't seem to get rid of
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anyway, and I'd watch Dad scream his lungs off, whenever a
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potential customer went the ``wrong'', if you will, way
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around the fence and into the RIUS-lot.
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{\em Question}.
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Just insane stuff; like he had this thing where he'd jump
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onto the fence and hang there shaking it like a fucking deranged
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chimp, rattling the metal, shouting how the guy who owned the
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RIUS-lot was a no-good-for-nothing wife-stealer who also happened
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to sell exceptionally horrible cars that no man with half a fucking
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brain would ever want to et cetera et cetera.
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{\em Question}.
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Well Not-Dad would do the exact same routine whenever one went into
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the BAVA lot. Sticks and stones. I'm not going to sit here and
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assign blame.
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{\em Question}.
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She never came around. I haven't seen her since she walked
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out. He did bring Luke a whole bunch of times though. We'd
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play. In the beginning, we'd play. There was always this
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acute{\ldots} weirdness about it. Playing with him. Like seeing
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yourself in a funhouse mirror that somehow made you just an eerily
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tiny bit prettier than you are. We had to stop when they put up the
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actual WALL --- as in the brick wall.
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{\em Question}.
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They put it up in a moment of clarity I guess? Business had gone
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way downhill for both of them, what with all the shouting and
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fence-rattling and whathaveyou. It was sort of a necessity. They
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even split the bill.
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{\em Question}.
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Ah well so but it didn't stop there. Because after the wall,
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Dad got into this habit of sneaking into the RIUS-lot and greeting
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customers like he owned the place; he might as well could have,
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it's not like anybody could tell the difference.
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So he'd sneak into the RIUS-lot and greet potential buyers
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and just do a hell of a good job at being the very worst salesman
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he could possibly be, to scare them off.
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He'd make a show of keeping an open bottle of Jack on his person while
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talking to customers, luridly coming on to any female buyers slash wives
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slash children --- this earned him a couple of impressive beatings that
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had him just look an AWFUL lot like the kind of person you would not buy
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a car from --- he would follow the buyer around the RIUS-lot going ``oh
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heavens no, you wouldn't want to buy {\em that}; two words: {\em death
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traps}'' et cetera --- until Not-Dad would finally spot him from
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inside the dealership and coming rushing it, swearing and screaming,
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effectively scaring off pretty much everybody.
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Of course, after a week or so, Not-Dad would reciprocate by pulling
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the exact same kinds of stunts at the BAVA-lot and for a while
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there everything was absolutely, completely apeshit. Care for a
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drink?
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{\em Question}.
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Well Dad started getting up early in the morning to beat Not-Dad to
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work and lurk around Not-Dad's lot, impersonating him.
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Not-Dad started doing the exact same thing. After a year or so, Dad
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would clock in at Not-Dad's lot at seven in the morning and
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visa versa. After a year and a half, they'd pretty much
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swapped lots and spent most of their days scaring off the other's
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half's customers. They stopped selling cars over the course of a
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couple of months, in order to make sure the other didn't sell any
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either.
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{\em Question}.
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Well they went bankrupt. Both of them, and spectacularly so.
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{\em Question}.
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And so Luke beat me to it, is the gist of my story. He wrote this
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entire thing down faster and much more eloquently than I found
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myself able to. And don't think I did not try. I tried. The
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day I heard that he'd gotten published, I had two hundred and
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fifty type-written pages and was just about to finish up my own
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rendition.
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{\em Question}.
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Just another matter in which Luke Bavarius has proved to be that
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teeny, tiny bit better than me, I am afraid. He's the genius,
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he's the author. He's the one with his god damed
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non-split face on the cover of dust-jackets everywhere. And so here
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we are. And here {\em you} are. Digging up the dirt for your
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fucking profile.
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{\em Question}.
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I don't even fucking care. You think I haven't told
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this story? Who {\em told} you this story? Was it Luke? Mr.\ Ehl
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Bee, Mr.\ Writing-under-a-Pseudonym-to-be-artsy-Biddick, with his
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prodigious talent and his intense, {\em fucking} eyebrows that he
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probably picks like a bitch? Was it? It wasn't. It was me. I
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want you to stand up, walk over to that bookshelf right there. Go
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ahead. Pull out his book. It's right there. Don't think
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I haven't bought it. I'm not your average bitter fucking
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idiot. I have money to spend. Pull it out of the shelf and look at
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him, on the dust jacket. Monochrome and unsplit, brooding. Go
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ahead. It's me.
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Am I not the butt of a cruel, genealogical joke? My father
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abandoned by love. I myself abanoned by fate. You want horror? Look
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at his picture, then at me.
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Do you not see this? Has the whole god forsaken world gone mad? I
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am telling you this story. I am the first incarnation of this
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story. Who is this Luke Bavarius? Go head. Look at his picture.
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Look at this Davidesque, seemingly retouched rendition of yours
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truly. See all that is shared between us. Am I not the narrator? I
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am L. Bavarius. Do I not deserve recognition? Look at his
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face.
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Pick it up. Go the fuck ahead.
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