From 18f925193474a61b509d8c4f5e0672c7402a0a47 Mon Sep 17 00:00:00 2001 From: Neale Pickett Date: Tue, 26 Sep 2023 12:21:25 -0600 Subject: [PATCH] Cut down reunion post --- .../2023/09-26-high-school-reunion/index.md | 38 ++----------------- 1 file changed, 4 insertions(+), 34 deletions(-) diff --git a/content/blog/2023/09-26-high-school-reunion/index.md b/content/blog/2023/09-26-high-school-reunion/index.md index 02918e1..8a0ddac 100644 --- a/content/blog/2023/09-26-high-school-reunion/index.md +++ b/content/blog/2023/09-26-high-school-reunion/index.md @@ -16,40 +16,10 @@ asking if I'm going to the reunion this year. I am not. -Every time this question is asked, -I feel compelled to explain my reasoning, -in the kind of overly-introspective detail that was the hallmark of my high school existence. -*I am no longer like this*, -it only happens when someone from high school brings up high school in the context of high school. - -It feels like being in high school all over again. -And that's just answering an email! -I shudder to think how it would feel to be surrounded by the same people, -in the same environment. - -I don't want to go back to the person I was in high school. -I like the person I am now, -and I acknowledge that high school me and college me were necessary steps toward adult me. -But I have no desire to revisit actually being that person, -and it's clear that every time I even approach that context, -I slip right back into that place. - -Going to the reunion would not be healthy for me. -It would not help me "close out" any embarassment or hurt feelings. -It would not provide me an opportunity to "make up" for the things I still regret, 30+ years later. -People I think would make good friends now would continue to be inaccessible to me, -*because they have moved on*. -Old crushes that I forgot in college would still trigger a spark, -and a few days isn't enough time to work past that. -My bullies might make some attempt to apologize, which would be awkward, -or they might not, which would be aggravating. -People I got along with back then, yeah, I'd still get along with them. -*But most of those people are already keeping in touch with me!* - -I can't see this playing out any other way than the old cliques re-forming. -That is not my idea of a good time. +I like the person I am now! +I acknowledge that high school me and college me were necessary steps toward adult me, +but stepping into my high school shoes again is not an appealing proposition. I understand that this calculation is different for everyone. But -I personally have nothing to gain from going to the reunion, -and a whole lot to lose. +I personally have little to gain from going to the reunion.