horrors2

BenBiddick.Impatience.tex

 1\chapauth{Ben Biddick}
 2\chapter{Impatience and Curiosity}
 3
 4They said I was discontent with life. I forgive them though. Looking
 5back on my life's ending, I weep. Everything wasted. How could they know
 6why? They thought I was happy with life. They thought I loved every
 7single one of them. They thought I was satisfied, they thought.
 8
 9The death of my body was self-imposed. I loaded a pistol, and put it to
10my head. Without any hesitation or fear, I pulled the trigger. My soul
11then retreated from my physical into into a terrible world of nothing.
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13I do not know why I committed the act. My life was stable financially. I
14was soon to be married to the beautiful maiden, Annabel Lee. We never
15quarreled, so the cause of my death wasn't inspired by heartbreak. There
16was no forethought or common sense involved. Curiosity. Is curiosity
17with the after-death world an excuse? Curiosity wasn't the entire reason
18for my self-imposed death. It was also impatience. I couldn't find
19anything exciting. My assets had enabled me to travel. I had a nice
20house. Enough money for all the financial things. I had plenty of
21friends. Ones that cared for me, not only my money. I had my soon-to-be
22wife. I had my family. I'd run out of imagination to create goals and
23achievements. My brain then came across the thought of my only frontier:
24death. Would you call me insane.
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26Now I just float here, in the darkness of purgatory, not doing
27anything. For what is there to do? I have long given up trying to get
28out. It is eternal punishment for taking away the most important thing
29God gave humans. I only with I could die again\ldots